CALLING ALL LURKERS! LONG POST ALERT!! I’ve heard from so many clients this week that are struggling, and a few have mentioned that they lurk on this message board but don’t post bc they only see people sharing how successful they are at this lifestyle and don’t feel comfortable sharing their struggles. I made a mental note that this weekend I would ask for the quiet lurkers to come out from the shadows….but then I realized I was being a hypocrite and needed to take a cold, hard look in the mirror, bc I am just as guilty! Every Friday as of late, I have been struggling, and it has set me up for a weekend of difficulty. Today, I went to the gym and had to cut my workout short bc of some back pain, and I was so upset, spiraling and irrationally catastraphazing how I’m never going to be able to work out again and I’m going to gain 200 pounds back. So what does any card carrying food addict do in this scenario - I went straight to buy some crappy low carb junk and ate it all in the car on the way home. It was a real binge. All low carb crap, but a binge nonetheless. And then after it was already eaten - I opened up the seamless app and put a bunch of crap in my cart for dinner delivery bc I had already blown it and was gonna go all the way and start over on Monday. But it’s barely 4 minutes into the weekend and I didn’t want to repeat this behavior bc I know how it ends. So I planned how I was going to fast for 84 hours. And workout extra hard And actually fooled myself into believing this bullshit for about 15 minutes. But I want to enjoy myself this weekend with friends and family. I want to be productive. I want to relax. I want to do some writing and reflecting. I don’t want a stomach ache. I want to exercise and give my body and joints a chance to be less inflamed. And I don’t want to be consumed with eating like it is my job. So I got back home, and instead of ordering dinner in, I forced myself to take the next right step, something I have often suggested many of you do, but I don’t always practice lately. I wasn’t really all that hungry, but I knew if I didn’t get any real nutrition in me that I would end up in a worse place, eating way worse food, so I scrambled 6 eggs and toasted a Rosettes bagel from the freezer, and forced myself to eat it all as a strategy to eat more now in order to eat less later. I have said these words so many times - and tonight I feel like I really feel them to my core: i am only ever ONE PLATE OF EGGS away from being on track. I am a health coach and the program director for Dr. Tro’s practice and just admitted to bingeing and struggling and spiraling. Will you lurkers help by coming out from behind your screens? What are you struggling with?
Posted by Amy Eiges at 2023-05-06 02:22:51 UTC