I was hit with an abnormal (for me) non-scale-victory on my drive home tonight. It felt like a huge milestone for me. I'll preface this with the fact that during my 30 years of "dieting" I've tried to convince myself (and others) that "nothing tastes as good as thin feels" (bullshit...sorry, that was always a lie.) Or "the thought of that donut repulses me", the lie I told myself as I used logic ... it did repulse me because I knew it was bad but the thought of actually eating it didn't because I never addressed those cravings that made those things so tempting. I just tried to convince myself with the logic. But tonight driving home, as I passed the Popeyes a few blocks from my house, I saw a family pulling out of the drive thru and everyone was eating a biscuit. Before, I would have been caught staring with lust at that biscuit. It would have kicked a craving for that fat/carb mix. But I literally felt repulsed. The thought of a bite of that biscuit really didn't spark a desire at all. This wasn't the same "you know this is bad so you don't want it" mental mind trick that I've gone thru for years. I was really turned off by the thought. I wouldn't want that bite if you paid me (even if you paid my electric bill this month and that would be an incentive!) I'm in a little plateau right now but not discouraged. I'm feeling good, I'm making changes and my tastes are changing in a way that the things that I used to crave are not only not cravings, but I just don't want them at all. (Yes, I still use some replacement foods but less than I was.) Anyway, I felt good about this today and thought I would share. There are so many steps on this journey and so many ways to measure success. Each small victory is just that...a victory. Now I'm going for a walk and hoping to drag my neighbor out with me.
Posted by Shannon L. at 2022-09-07 23:51:40 UTC